What bootcamp did you take? How did it go and what did you learn? Can you share us examples of projects you did during this bootcamp? Where are you located? It does sound like you might be clinically depressed and should seek treatment for that. Otherwise you might have to just take a break from doing programming jobs and just apply to any related type job such as QA and work your way back into dev. As you stated your years of experience havn't helped you in the interview process and most dev interviews weed out weak candidates pretty quickly.
JavaScript/Ruby are very employable skills and there's no shortage of places that need them. If you have the time, I'd give it a try since there's nothing to lose (you don't pay them if you don't get a job).
I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that OP probably doesn't have the appropriate cognitive disposition for programming as a career.
He referred to himself as normal; software programmers as a group have an IQ metric well above normal. BY NO MEANS am I suggesting that he is not smart; in fact, he should trust his feelings even more. Just because he is not a desirable programmer does not mean that he isn't welcomed by the tech community and industry; this thread is clear evidence of that.
There are many lucrative roles in tech that do not rely on programming as a primary activity.