| Just want to preface this: the following contains a giant wad of sarcastic tone and is mildly accosting; this comes from my own internal dialogue with myself about this same issue. My internal voice doesn't take my real voice very seriously. It's not meant to be unkind whatsoever. --- There's something called Y-Generation; you're it. Good for you, you think you're special. And your friends all think they're special. Guess what? I think I'm the most special of everyone. Yup... this is our plight, and frankly, we just need to get the hell over it. :) If I really believe I'm capable of doing great things (which I do), then there's no reason I shouldn't be doing them. But for some reason... shrug Excuses -- my biggest one, ultimately, is that because I think I'm sooooo smart, and capable of suuuuch grand things, I'm scared shitless of trying and failing and realizing that maybe I'm not quite as exceptional as I thought. Poor little baby ego, awwww.... Keep putting up a front though. You managed to say the sentence "Thus, I have picked up another job which I'll join in a few weeks." Do you have friends who don't work in tech? Like, for real? Normally... in the real world... you don't just "pick up" a job as if you were going shopping. Spoiled goddamn brats, the whole bunch of us! My suggestion is to go find a local pub with good staff and good regulars that you can relate to. Go there more and more often until you're blowing all your money getting tanked every night of the week. If you keep that up long enough, and then push it just a little bit longer, you'll either figure out you're exactly where you belong, or you'll get so fed up that you'll end up back exactly where you are now. But this time you'll have something to run away from. |
Alcoholism is not amusing.
Also you are projecting your inner thought onto others just as the original poster is projecting his feelings onto those of his peers in order to find self-justification.
Obstacles over which you you think you have no control is usually an emotional response. Separate from your emotions. When I am feeling negative emotions, I try to see them as a separate event, not a part of you, and I watch them.
This removes their power as commandments one must follow or believe in, but rather they are just passing objects, like a leaf floating past you in the wind. The leaf doesn’t control you, and neither do negative emotions.
Viewed existentially most "obstacles or powers" affecting us beyond our reach are not really so. And those that are, just are. Better to accept them.