[london1988]

Nursie, thanks for the support. I've gone and registered at the GP and hopefully going to get a call to arrange to see a therapist soon. It wasn't easy.

Thankfully I'm under 30 so wouldn't get kicked out of Australia after 3 months (why that restriction is in place seems ludicrous). I've considered travelling but worry that presently that would be escaping my issues. When the time is right though the east coast of Australia sounds pretty awesome. I had never considered it as a location to get lost in so will jot it down. :+1:.

"There's a whole frickin' world out there waiting to be lived in. Fuck Suicide." Made me smile.

Thanks again.

[Nursie]

Sometimes when you escape somewhere for a while your issues seem a lot smaller from over there :)

Either way, good luck with it all, hope you find a way to happiness!

[w0rd-driven]

I cannot stress this enough. The relief of a week off really helped me last year. When I came back I literally felt that "lead weight" another commenter mentioned. I thought it was that Atlanta is different than Fort Lauderdale but it was more likely depression kicking in again. I felt like a different person on that trip and even if I have to say "I remember x years ago..." That break really helped put things into proper focus. The fight then becomes make that one week the rest of my life. If i can do one week I can do two or fifty-two.

I've become a fan of small victories as of late because I'm a bit of a perfectionist. There will never be a "right" way/place/time to deal with this. I have to find relief however it'll come and the smallest steps I can make if it comes to that.