She was one of those nordic women with big bones, literally, when she was a model you could see easily several of her bones and she was more or less masculine.
When I dated her, she was overweight by her standards (but had a perfectly normal weight actually, she was underweight when she was a model), this made her "bonyness" get bit hidden and her body got natural feminine curves, also her face was very beautiful (you ever saw a ugly model?).
Yet, I remember how odd to me it sounded when she wanted to have sex with me (I was not much sure about it, I was virgin) but with lights off. I was like: "Alright, you want to convince me to have sex, but with lights off?" Then she claimed that she was too fat and bony and she looked like a transexual...
I was kinda shocked... But over time this did not really go away, it would not matter how much I would reassure her, or how much other men looked at me with obvious envy, or how beautiful she really was, she always for one reason or another thought herself ugly. This is one of the reasons the relationship fell apart... But I never forget it, I dated a woman that was rich, powerful and a model, but she kept thinking herself weak and ugly (specially, fat with protuding bones... So yes, there are people that would describe themselves like that)
In the particular case of models, that can be way worse, as it is a very competitive field where you're constantly compared and measured against other (obviously gorgeous) models.
I imagine that being a model put your self-esteem under a huge presure.
I think most people find models unattractive. Most models are gaubf skeletons (human clothes hangers) with creepy facial expressions for the catwalk, and ridiculous clothes.
Movie stars, rock stars/dancers, very attractive. Models, not really.
I'm not sure it's as simple as that culturally re self-criticism. Women are trained not to be assertive in general and to think that you are one of the beautiful people is considered a huge assertion. Beautiful is something other people are, celebrities and models. It really is a self image thing. It's like if you're 70 and have decided you cannot possibly learn computers, you never will because you'll constantly look for excuses to reinforce your self image.
"Oh my nose is slightly large," "my lips are too thin," "my face is too bony," "I'm too fat," etc etc. Anything not to rock the boat of your self image.
She was one of those nordic women with big bones, literally, when she was a model you could see easily several of her bones and she was more or less masculine.
When I dated her, she was overweight by her standards (but had a perfectly normal weight actually, she was underweight when she was a model), this made her "bonyness" get bit hidden and her body got natural feminine curves, also her face was very beautiful (you ever saw a ugly model?).
Yet, I remember how odd to me it sounded when she wanted to have sex with me (I was not much sure about it, I was virgin) but with lights off. I was like: "Alright, you want to convince me to have sex, but with lights off?" Then she claimed that she was too fat and bony and she looked like a transexual...
I was kinda shocked... But over time this did not really go away, it would not matter how much I would reassure her, or how much other men looked at me with obvious envy, or how beautiful she really was, she always for one reason or another thought herself ugly. This is one of the reasons the relationship fell apart... But I never forget it, I dated a woman that was rich, powerful and a model, but she kept thinking herself weak and ugly (specially, fat with protuding bones... So yes, there are people that would describe themselves like that)