[michaelrhansen]

I am not a therapist, but if nothing seems to work (pills, medical attention, diet), I would suggest doing something else totally drastic - sell everything you can, take a long deserved break from the digital world and go on an amazing year long adventure. Find some country to volunteer in for a year - could be nature conservation related, assisting the poor, whatever. Don't over think it (but do enough to be safe) and just GO. I might get down-voted, but shit, that is what I would do.

[CyberFonic]

YES! How about getting a rescue dog! You'll be responsible for it, that keeps you going from day to day. Those adorable little buggers give back your love many times over.

A friend of mine did that and since he had to walk the dog, met many other people with dogs and in so doing met a lovely girl and they're now happily together with both dogs.

[EvanKelly]

This is an excellent idea. Living alone can help create an "echo chamber" (for lack of a better term) for negative emotions. Dogs (especially trained companion dogs) almost never contribute to these negative emotions.

Having someone/something to care for and who depends on you is sometimes a substantial boost to one's psyche.

[cowpewter]

Yes. I suffered from clinical depression years ago, and the number one thing that stopped me from ever harming myself was knowing that my cat was completely dependent on me. Even if I had arranged matters so I knew I would be found before she could starve or anything, I knew she wouldn't understand why I was gone. Those thoughts always triggered a huge sobbing jag, but they kept me alive.

[turnwhere]

These are all interesting points. In terms of caring for something, and something being dependent on me, I know that this would stop me wanting to kill myself so much - but it would be out of guilt. I already have that feeling for my mother. I want to find a positive reason to live, instead of what I see as a reverse negative.

The traveling thing - it's funny you should mention that. A month ago I did exactly this. I've left my business running and I've gone to another country. I am trying to spend as much time as possible volunteering, to help other people, as I thought this might help me. So far unfortunately I have felt very bad here. I am not entirely sure why. I will be here for another 2 months before I return.

[maniacwhat]

I agree with this. Clearly you aren't happy with the life you're currently living, so change it completely. Do something exciting.

You may find it brings a new desire to live when you actually have to work to stay comfortable. There are many options, off the top of my head I would say fly to India with very little money and try to make a living. You have your savings as backup but try not to use them unless you really have to.

I realise it doesn't apply to everyone, so perhaps this isn't the answer, but at least for me excitement is what keeps me going, without it life really is quite boring.