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by ltbarcly3
136 days ago
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It just makes me eat less. I enjoy food every bit as much as I did before, just less often and in lower amounts. I still get hungry eventually and still want to eat and food tastes the same and if anything has a stronger emotional appeal than it did before because I eat so little. I still enjoy drinking an IPA just as much, and really I enjoy it much more since I have one every few months instead of 5 every night. I could enjoy one every night, but I don't really need to have it, even though it would be delicious and the buzz is enjoyable, I just don't feel compelled to get it and I know it's not good for me. I knew before it wasn't good for me, believe me as the child of an alcoholic I knew it wasn't good to drink every night, but I did anyway because I had something inside pushing me to do it. So maybe that is what you are describing, that thing that pushes you to do things you know are bad for you, and which you will regret immediately, but yet you feel like you have to do anyway. It's not enjoying something more, it's more like feeding withdrawal. Overall I feel like there is someone in control now. I can just decide that drinking a beer every night is bad for me and not aligned with my goals and then I don't do it, and when I rarely think about it I'm just not a person who drinks alone anymore and my thoughts quickly move on to figuring out how to make croissant dough or looking for a scene to post to instagram or some work problem that has been bugging me. |
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Why are you eating less, if you enjoy eating just as much as before?
Is it that you feel physically full (would be uncomfortable to eat more)? Or is it that you aren't hungry (but you're also not particularly "full")?