AEDs are an amazing invention and I'm glad to see them dotted around the place. Initially in dedicated cabinets mounted to walls outdoors, and sometimes in repurposed telephone booths.
I see AEDs hanging on the wall at work. My only real thought is if I have a heart attack at work, just let me die. Clearly I'm not going to make it to retirement anyways if the stress nd stress eating from my job is giving me a heart attack.
Bit of a false dichotomy: some people survive a heart attack without intervention, but suffer crippling injuries as a result. It's entirely possible to develop arrhythmia, fall into a low-oxygen state where you get brain damage, and then have your stupid heart decide to start pumping again.
while I don't know the details of your situation. However, my experience says there's always an alternative. Sometimes it means networking yourself. Sometimes it means changing industries while still leveraging your skills. Sometimes it means getting some education/certifications (even at night). Good luck on your future.