[stachudotnet]

<3. So often, I wish I could still talk to him, about anything, incl Dark. I wish you the best in recovering from and processing your mother's passing - it's been over five years now since my dad's death. It's not easy, but it gets easier.

Maybe it's OK that software / the industry means less. Maybe death just puts things into perspective? At least, that feels like a component to me. Maybe I should have spent less time coding and more time calling him.

[cglong]

Thank you, I really appreciate that :) Yes, I'm starting to realize that it's a wound that never heals but instead one you just have to live with.

Not sure if this applies to you, but at least for me: One thought that's helped is remembering it was my mom who pushed me to pursue computer science. I think she'd want me to rediscover the passion I used to have, even though, like you're alluding to, I've learned that it has to be done in moderation.