[cglong]

Thank you, I really appreciate that :) Yes, I'm starting to realize that it's a wound that never heals but instead one you just have to live with.

Not sure if this applies to you, but at least for me: One thought that's helped is remembering it was my mom who pushed me to pursue computer science. I think she'd want me to rediscover the passion I used to have, even though, like you're alluding to, I've learned that it has to be done in moderation.