| Idk what everyone is saying. What you have written makes sense to me. They appear as if they don't want to be associated with you, something like that could be a little cruel.. I'd go to a Church that fits your beliefs and access their help. It's worth noting that the culture changed, roughly in 2010ish. Anybody following sequential, ordered, rules, today, is being dragged down by it. Your work to stop bad behaviour, is relatable to me, but the culture has dumped it. Nobody said any of this, they just did it and then distanced themselves from everyone else. Again I find what you're saying relatable, but that won't save you. Don't chase relationships (or social connections), people will choose family, friends and church over randoms, even known randoms. It's basically the opposite culturally, of the world we grew up in. You've done well to kick bad habits and stay sober while homeless. The upside is that you don't have anyone to pull you down... keep every last cent you make and get some 'housing' you can keep to yourself, like a car or a motorhome. Memories will drag you down, into the depths, like an emotional vortex. Better memories can be painful. |