[throwaway757]

> Why not?

It’s a good question and I don’t know the answer. I wish I knew the answer as I know it would help me. I show up and I just am not motivated as I feel like what’s the point. There is no reward (for me) or appreciation or any real benefit to what I provide (as I see leadership factions questioning my project and general politics of furthering their own agenda for their own growth. I am all for doing the work but if I know there is no growth for me here what’s the point.

> Why don’t you see a path

So many reorgs and changes of directions every few months. I know my (mid level) manager is a good person but he has no choice but the feed be BS that you will be promoted in a year or so and hang in there. I would do the same if I were in his shoes cos I know he has no control of any of this.

> how long can I support my family. At least a year (depleting all my cash savings)

I wonder a lot if am I an anomaly or there are a lot of people in FANGs just like this.

[kojeovo]

I've been in similar work environments and a change of teams completely changed how I felt about things. Got promoted after that too. Maybe there is an internal transfer program you can explore.

At the end of the day you are supporting a family so that in itself is the point of what you're doing. I think most ppl that have ever lived had to do stuff they didnt quite enjoy every day and can relate, but probably not most ppl in FAANG.

Maybe also seek some kind of therapy, just talking to a professional could help.

The startup / work for yourself thing is risky and may end up more stressful, but at least you do have cushion to try it. But I don't think that's the answer.. there's something deeper.

[throwaway757]

Thanks for sharing. Any thoughts on what kind of therapy helps here. I have no idea where to start. Psychological or Psychiatric or something else?

[kirubakaran]

(not the parent, but) You might want to try CBT / ACT, but to be frank, any therapy would help (as long as the therapist is good)