[justsomeguyhere]

So I've tried half a dozen antipsychotics, here are my 2 cents:

The only things those drugs did to me were making me comatose, poop my pants, sleepy, dumb and hungry.

You can't be declared psychotic or paranoid, when the only thing you can do is sleep, drool, poop yourself, and make 3 words sentences, so lazy doctors think these drugs work.

But they don't, there was zero change in my beliefs, fears, anxieties, I was the exact same person, only slower, dumber, and sleepier.

And at some point, when you're exhausted from being a zombie, you end just lying to your doc and pretending everything is fine, even when you believe doctors should always know the truth, because it's the only way to stop yourself from staying a brain dead zombie for life and causing irreversible damage.

[tredre3]

I recognize myself very much in your words. I've also tried everything and it does not change my beliefs, fears, crippling anxiety one bit. Let alone improve my mood. Thankfully does help with mania. But the side effects are pretty bad and the doctors I've met tend to dismiss them, especially the more esoteric ones.

So I have to lie to doctors to steer them towards the care I really need. I would prefer not to lie. I tried not to lie. But when you tell them you want to quit or go as needed, they gently suggest committing you or lose interest in you. They see you as a toy to experiment on. It's impossible to be treated like an adult. It's infuriating.

[winocm]

Concur. Those medications ruined my life.