[itsallinyahead]

If you let the bad emotions and feelings do their business, instead of constantly trying to escape from them, you wouldn't be feeling this way.

You, and many others in this modern world, remind of Dostoyevskian characters: neurotic, overly-emotional, busy buzzing around, the cause of all their own problems. No one can sit still in silence, alone with themselves -- they're always running away. There's always some emotion taking hold of them, and can't simply let it run its course. No, "something must be done!"

It reminds me of the Russian "martial art" система: the more you "hold on," the more pain you will feel, and less effective your moves will be. Somehow, people have never learned to let go, and become completely relaxed. They're constantly holding onto something, and being thrashed around by life.

Perhaps you people need to try ayahuasca? Or maybe meditation? Maybe drink less coffee? Maybe stop forcing yourself to do all of this stuff you really don't want to do? Take a break? Become mindful of your body, mind, and soul?

I have 2,000 weeks left. My life will not be lived "fully" to the standards of some over-socialized urbanite. That is fine. I have things I want to do. I don't care about anyone's opinion on them. Knowing I have lived half of my life already doesn't stir any emotions in me. There is no existential dread.

There is no "start" to living a life. You're living one already. If there are things that stir emotions in you, let them. Never exploring your feelings, leading to the emotional depth of a middle schooler, is one way to not live a "full" life -- not some inanity about "spending" your time "better" (to reduce life to some abstraction is only for the soulless).

[cpsns]

> Perhaps you people need to try ayahuasca?

I seriously wish people on HN and more broadly would stop suggesting drugs and tripping out so often as a solution to any depression or existential dread.

I get it's one of several suggestions you made, but it's the most dangerous suggestion of all of them. People end up seriously harmed by this stuff, it's not to be taken lightly.

[localghost3000]

Ugh. Yeah I was annoyed at that one. For one, I've been sober for about 10 years. Taking some mind altering substances would probably result in me waking up in a hotel room in TJ 2 weeks later. :)

[avgcorrection]

It’s adorable that you made an account to scold some random person for how their inner life works, as if you could glean that from a one-paragraph comment.

But as we all know: those who scold random people are the great teachers-by-example.

[localghost3000]

You've made a fresh HN account and made a lot of broad character assessments about me from a single comment. I am happy with where I am in life and what I've done with it. I just had a critique about the website having unintentional side effects. I've read 4k weeks and actually like that book. Perhaps instead of lecturing strangers on the internet with your enlightened views, you take a second to meditate and access some humility? Kind of annoying when someone suggests that isn't it?

[smallnix]

Or consider this, a person that manages to take out a loan and then dies before repaying can cheat the bank.

[ehecatl42]

It has crossed my mind to take such a loan, spend it on waygu and Château Lafite and that euthanasia place (Dignitas?) in Switzerland. Cheat the bank and the pain of dying. But then again, I am curious to see how things turn out, and that I won't know until my computation is complete.

[Dalewyn]

Not necessarily; any guarantors and/or successors will have to deal with that outstanding debt.