[cpt1138]

While youre waiting start exercising, preferably outdoors, running, cycling or whatever. Force yourself and although I'm in California and we don't have miserable weather, I find that weather has that "whatever doesn't kill you" aspect to it.

Don't give up on finding another job. It will happen, just keep at it. Some people (me included) can only stay enthusiastic about a job for about a year. Then it becomes a paycheck and whatever else I can get out of it until I can move on to the next one.

I don't believe the mantra that idea's are a dime a dozen. Keep looking until you find an idea that really grabs you and get as much as you can out of it. If nothing else, do it and brush up on your tech skills for that next interview.

Please do see someone professional about your thoughts of suicide. Good luck, you are not alone.

[dazedconfused]

Thank you.

[adrianwaj]

Seeing "someone professional about your thoughts of suicide" is a good idea if the thoughts are very bad and pervasive and you are in danger to yourself or others, I think. But in the end they'll offer only two things: psychotherapy or psychotropic medication - is that a long-term, sustainable and smart solution?

[mechanical_fish]

We've already got a written statement that exhibits most of the classic warning signs of depression. Does the poor guy need to submit it in triplicate before you'll take him seriously?

The OP should worry about the long run, but only after taking every necessary measure to get through the short run.

Meanwhile, whether or not any course of treatment is a long-term, sustainable, smart solution depends on the patient, of course. Therapy, both short-term and sustained, has markedly improved the lives of multiple friends and relations of mine, and drugs have very definitely saved the lives of a few, and that's just the ones I know about.

[brfox]

Don't undervalue the benefits of some short-term usage of medication to get back on your feet! I'm a little surprised that no one in these replies has suggested it, but please do consider it - it is a very smart solution! You'll feel better and might make some progress on your goals and then feel better about yourself again. And, heck, even if it is long-term, that's fine, too, don't let these folks be a judge of that for you.