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Don't undervalue the benefits of some short-term usage of medication to get back on your feet! I'm a little surprised that no one in these replies has suggested it, but please do consider it - it is a very smart solution! You'll feel better and might make some progress on your goals and then feel better about yourself again. And, heck, even if it is long-term, that's fine, too, don't let these folks be a judge of that for you.