[horofox]

First of all, people frequently do those walls of texts when they have no idea of who they are, they just did everything that they were told so, so they are like a puppet. Making money is not hard when you are puppet. Here on HN there's a lot of paul graham's puppets, so they somehow spend their lifes creating CRUD apps...

Don't take me this the wrong way.... but I think you are full of shit. You are those kind of people(very common in HN's community also) that HAVE to think you are somehow special. You think that life is something you explore and conquer. Your life made you think like that and now it's time for you to release yourself from your stupid destiny, just like you did with the drugs.

Start reading more philosophy and literature... I know you are probably goal driven and there's absolutely no real goal in "reading". You just get to see things differently, with a diferent perspective and that will really help you.

Also, don't forget that days go by really fast, someday you will die. God might not exist and that might be your last chance to be yourself, so... who are you?

And please, make real friends and get a girlfriend: you will see how simple working and making money is, something hard is to make a person happy everyday(your friends, your girlfriend, the ones that you love...).

[x0ner]

I wouldn't agree that I need to be some sort of "special" person or anything like that. I do view life as something to explore and to enjoy. In my opinion they sort of go hand-in-hand, but you may disagree. I don't believe in any sort of destiny and never had a problem with drugs, it was everyone around me who did.

You are right that I am very goal driven, but I try and read at least 50 books a year. Most, if not all the books I read tend to be non-fiction, so I may benefit from actually opening up a classic or well written novel every now and then. For now I enjoy reading memoirs about the lives of ordinary people and the different issues they face. Those sort of things give me a different perspective on how to approach certain topics going forward and I find value in that.

I agree with your last one, but to seek out people in that way is not always the best form of doing things. Instead, I go out and try new activities. I make friends through those things. I talk with people when I am out and if something happens then great. If not, then it doesn't worry me too much.

I appreciate your response and despite it coming off a little hostile, there is value in it.

[horofox]

So you are basically trying to get advice on something and tell me afterwards "I'm this, this and that."

I really think that you should reflect more and relax, you are in a good position comparing people at your age. That is good... but I feel that you care more about counting the countries that you've visited(like 140 countries!) instead of the moments you had there. I do abstract a lot of things like that too, but sometimes its time to enjoy the moment.

Well, I hope you find your way and be happy(or get out of boredom)! :D