[x0ner]

I wouldn't agree that I need to be some sort of "special" person or anything like that. I do view life as something to explore and to enjoy. In my opinion they sort of go hand-in-hand, but you may disagree. I don't believe in any sort of destiny and never had a problem with drugs, it was everyone around me who did.

You are right that I am very goal driven, but I try and read at least 50 books a year. Most, if not all the books I read tend to be non-fiction, so I may benefit from actually opening up a classic or well written novel every now and then. For now I enjoy reading memoirs about the lives of ordinary people and the different issues they face. Those sort of things give me a different perspective on how to approach certain topics going forward and I find value in that.

I agree with your last one, but to seek out people in that way is not always the best form of doing things. Instead, I go out and try new activities. I make friends through those things. I talk with people when I am out and if something happens then great. If not, then it doesn't worry me too much.

I appreciate your response and despite it coming off a little hostile, there is value in it.

[horofox]

So you are basically trying to get advice on something and tell me afterwards "I'm this, this and that."

I really think that you should reflect more and relax, you are in a good position comparing people at your age. That is good... but I feel that you care more about counting the countries that you've visited(like 140 countries!) instead of the moments you had there. I do abstract a lot of things like that too, but sometimes its time to enjoy the moment.

Well, I hope you find your way and be happy(or get out of boredom)! :D