I know why I'm burning out, but I don't know what to do with the realisation. The fear of being fired, then broke, and then not being able to survive is real-ish. Advice?
Our minds are conditioned to operate from a place of fear. The fear feeling is real. The fears may even be founded.
The difference is whether you’re existing in the grip of that fear or thriving from a place of love.
You could try reading something like “The Mastery of Love” by Don Miguel Ruiz to get a taste, but the healing has to come through the body and nervous system. You can’t will your way through this.
Edit: Important note: The right antidepressant can help!
Do you feel like the realization/fear come from a rational place, or primarily driven by anxiety?
Everyone’s journey is different, but depending on where that fear is coming from, I could imagine drastically different next steps.
Personally, therapy has helped me immensely. A lot of my early anxiety about these things stemmed from severe imposter syndrome, and through the years I’ve gained enough confidence in myself to know that my skills are in demand, and survival is likely in the current market.
But if that fear is due to other things - the health of your employer’s business, etc. then a very different course of action might be required.
The difference is whether you’re existing in the grip of that fear or thriving from a place of love.
You could try reading something like “The Mastery of Love” by Don Miguel Ruiz to get a taste, but the healing has to come through the body and nervous system. You can’t will your way through this.
Edit: Important note: The right antidepressant can help!