> This is similar to a frustrating pattern of my own behavior over last year. Would you like to know what is behind it?
I don’t understand why someone would take this approach. Why not just explain the thing?
Then again, this seems like more of what was described, so perhaps this is in character. And this makes me wonder if this comment is actually trolling. Please understand that I’m not accusing you of trolling so much as I’m observing that this would be a really well-executed troll if such was the intent.
1. It will take a long time to write the answer so I first wanted to know if it would be at all interesting or if it would be dismissed as whinging and excuses.
2. in the past year, I’ve had severe negative responses to posting a verbose text response. I wanted to avoid that by first asking if people wanted it.
1. Recruited during a massive hiring push. Joined a team whose lead had joined less than 6 months earlier.
2. Encountered weird and unexpected difficulties.
3. Told my team lead that I felt like I wasn’t really delivering. Was told not to worry about impostor syndrome. Was urged to be more confident in standup.
4. During standup, confidently stated what I would get done according to what I thought was reasonable.
5. After overpromising, tried to figure out my current task. Didn’t ask for help because I did not know whom to ask.
6. Expected weird and unexpected difficulties.
7. After underdelivering, didn’t ask for help because I was ashamed to be taking so long at a task the team said was simple.
8. Worked longer hours to try to understand things.
9. Broadcast-Asked for help understanding things as my task dragged on.
10. Didn’t use the help successfully because the timebox for the task ran out. Burnt credibility.
11. At refinement said the next task would be hard. Lacked the information needed to win an argument for a longer estimate.
12. Tried to do tools-improvement work to increase my pace. Got distracted by this.
13. Tried to explain need to improve tools but was too brain-fried to write concisely.
Yeah that sounds pretty bad. If I was you I would refuse to take on more work until you can handle what your current task load is. And always multiply how long you think it will take by 3. Saying yes to more work when you are drowning is bad for you and everybody else.
I don’t understand why someone would take this approach. Why not just explain the thing?
Then again, this seems like more of what was described, so perhaps this is in character. And this makes me wonder if this comment is actually trolling. Please understand that I’m not accusing you of trolling so much as I’m observing that this would be a really well-executed troll if such was the intent.