| So it was a vicious cycle. 1. Recruited during a massive hiring push. Joined a team whose lead had joined less than 6 months earlier. 2. Encountered weird and unexpected difficulties. 3. Told my team lead that I felt like I wasn’t really delivering. Was told not to worry about impostor syndrome. Was urged to be more confident in standup. 4. During standup, confidently stated what I would get done according to what I thought was reasonable. 5. After overpromising, tried to figure out my current task. Didn’t ask for help because I did not know whom to ask. 6. Expected weird and unexpected difficulties. 7. After underdelivering, didn’t ask for help because I was ashamed to be taking so long at a task the team said was simple. 8. Worked longer hours to try to understand things. 9. Broadcast-Asked for help understanding things as my task dragged on. 10. Didn’t use the help successfully because the timebox for the task ran out. Burnt credibility. 11. At refinement said the next task would be hard. Lacked the information needed to win an argument for a longer estimate. 12. Tried to do tools-improvement work to increase my pace. Got distracted by this. 13. Tried to explain need to improve tools but was too brain-fried to write concisely. GOTO 4 …With many variations. |