[PastaMonster]

I have had psychiatric care for over half my life. The medicine I get do not work and I have tested everything the doctors have prescribed to me. None of the medicines work. I have had the feeling of hopelessness and the will to die for a very long time. If this was an option in my country I would jump at the chance. When an animal suffers you put it down. You do not keep it alive for as long as possible. That is barbaric. The indifference the doctors have is not helping either. That the nurses treat you as a child is infuriating. Nurses come as close to going over to baby speech as possible. I would love to know the drugs she drank.

[lootsauce]

https://www.nami.org/ is a great organization there are chapters in every state, lots of programs like peer-to-peer https://www.nami.org/Local-NAMI/Programs?classkey=7b7ca6ea-b...

[lootsauce]

Please please do not act on those thoughts. Continue on with therapy. Find others who have gone through similar experiences. Find joy in life despite the presence of all the hopelessness. It can be done! I want you to know even if it matters nothing to you I will be praying for you.

[jazoom]

I understand if you choose not to answer this. You say you would jump at euthanasia. Why do you not just take your own life in a more "conventional" way?

[throwaway8879]

I think most of us have this idea that if we don't take a drastic attempt like jumping off a bridge or hanging from a ceiling fan, we aren't suffering enough. In my case, I suppose I was looking for something painless hence a bottle of pills.

Perhaps our biological instinct for survival simply kicks in and whereas many people all throughout history have taken direct/bloody route to an exit, some of us just can't seem to do it.

[acover]

Things are usually structured to prevent suicides. For example windows in tall buildings are locked, helium gas for balloons is now mixed with oxygen.

Most methods have non zero chance of survival and consequences.

You weren't built to kill yourself, you were built to survive. That makes it difficult to harm yourself even if it would allow escape.

The world has too many people, why not let those who want to leave leave

[ghusbands]

The more guaranteed conventional ways tend to leave a body for someone to be traumatized by.