I understand if you choose not to answer this. You say you would jump at euthanasia. Why do you not just take your own life in a more "conventional" way?
I think most of us have this idea that if we don't take a drastic attempt like jumping off a bridge or hanging from a ceiling fan, we aren't suffering enough. In my case, I suppose I was looking for something painless hence a bottle of pills.
Perhaps our biological instinct for survival simply kicks in and whereas many people all throughout history have taken direct/bloody route to an exit, some of us just can't seem to do it.
Perhaps our biological instinct for survival simply kicks in and whereas many people all throughout history have taken direct/bloody route to an exit, some of us just can't seem to do it.