Thanks a lot for those questions, they are really helpful in self evaluation and deciding on further steps. Sometimes I think I should be more patient but somedays I feel like I should just drop it and hope for the best.
I might also suggest meditation and using the Headspace app to get started :) I found doing just 10 minutes a day helped me through a stressful period.
I just started meditating last week, after realizing I'm starting to feel miserable. Did you feel better after first sessions or did it take some time before you saw some changes?
It won't necessity solve your problems but you'll be able to better process your feelings.
I found it helped give me more clarity over what I wanted.
Stay strong and find a solution that works for you. We all hate uncertainty but it's a big part of life. Reading Buddhist philosophy helped me realize I'm going to be okay no matter what happens. Even if I lose my job. No matter what happens I can deal with it
I might also suggest meditation and using the Headspace app to get started :) I found doing just 10 minutes a day helped me through a stressful period.