[iforgotmypass]

Wanted to achieve lot in my life. And saw money as means to do that. Was ambitious, working hard. Left the job, founded company. Worked my ass off for 5 years. Failed. But earned enough so that for the last 2 years haven't been really working while trying to get my shit together (although soon the savings will run dry). Ruined my marriage with the only person I really cared about. Can't get any motivation to do anything and feel "out of loop" and outdated to get back into the job market. Thinking about the suicide.

Lessons learned: 1) money does not make you happy. If you don't know how to be happy with little, you won't be happier when you have a lot. 2) job and career is not everything. Healthy work-life balance means a lot.

.. Actually kinda hard to put all the thoughts, feelings and experiences of turbulent 7 years in only some sentences.

[astockwell]

You don't have to bear the burden alone. There are people available to listen and talk with you a 24x7 at 1-800-273-8255 (U.S.). Please consider talking to someone.

[sgt101]

Hello,

I'm really sorry to hear that you have had such a tough time, hopefully this thread shows that many, many people have similar experiences and struggles. You are not alone.

Have you tried reaching out to any organisations that might be able to help you? In the UK The Samaritans are on 116123 (https://www.samaritans.org/)

[pier25]

Sorry to hear this.

The way I've found motivation is to do something small for myself. It doesn't matter if it's not a world changing idea, but it has to be for you and it has to be small so that you can finish it quickly.

This is only intended to start working the motivation muscle (the reward system) of your brain. It takes time, but that's how I've done it in the past.

You can do this.