[throwawayIndian]

Dude, I can understand what you're saying here!

Those who haven't lived through a depression will never understand your plight and obviously not be able to "see" the challenges you face -- how oddly suppressed your voice is against this entire world -- but walk out of this ditch right now. It is going to kill you and even then the world will not understand your pain because it's designed that way.

You don't have to contribute or be a part of the machinery. Do not feed the for-profit machinery that you, like many of us, sorely dislike. Go into non-profit mode perhaps?: help a charity, give shelter to other underprivileged people or may be start an open source movement to make the machinery bleed.

Don't just sit and lose these moments explaining your situation to people who're blind and deaf and presumably dumb. They'll never see. They'll never see until this depression hits them for reasons of their own.

[return0]

If it's depression that causes demotivation how will "going nonprofit" be more motivating? I think you need to fix the depression issue first.

[throwawayIndian]

> how will "going nonprofit" be more motivating?

It may not!, but usually healing others is also self-healing.

One has to figure this path for themselves.

> I think you need to fix the depression issue first.

Absolutely! However, solving inability to work is equally important. Otherwise the patient will fall back into a depression again.

P.S: The comments above were for OP's inability to work, find work or be motivated about it. It isn't a solution for depression, which obviously needs thorough professional or medical help.