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First, never sacrifice personal satisfaction and happiness for a job. It will never work out well in the end and you will regret it later in life. Jobs come and go (there is very little company loyalty in either direction now a days), family shouldn't. Second, I will admit to being a douche earlier in my career when managing projects and wanting faster production. What changed it for me was an older engineer who was SLOW; he made no apologies for it and kept pointing out to me that yes, he took more time than many others. But many of them also had to come back 4-5 times to fix issues in the same code while in his the amount of rework was minimal if at all. So my perception was he was slower, but reality was he was faster because in the end he spent fewer man hours on any given problem. Once I learned that, mostly thanks to him helping show me, I changed how I viewed everyones productivity. His approach was not defensive, not belittling, not condescending and not ego driven. Instead he approached me and said he understood my concerns but thought it would help me to understand the man hours being spent versus just the deadline. Not that the deadlines weren't important, but if you make a deadline and have to rework code constantly for the next 2 weeks to fix preventable errors then did you really meet the deadline? So your answer out of this, is try to change the perception from your slow, to you spend less man hours (time doing rework) being more productive and writing better code. It won't always work, but frankly if it doesn't that isn't a team or company you want to be apart of. If they value speed over reliability and more man hours over fewer then they will just work people to death and treat them as disposable. One other point, if the team or company is a point, shoot, aim type this argument won't work and they will only value speed not accuracy or reliability. In that case, look for other work or another team within the company that has different values. |