[anon3_]

First, sorry you're in pain!

Depression is psychologically being trapped in a prediction we feel we can't turn around. Financial, romantic, lifestyle and other elements play a role in the lack of powerlessness you feel. Either of these things may be significant enough to make every breath harder.

The way to fight depression is to empower yourself and give you more options to flourish.

If you're determined antidepressants are what you need - SSRI's are something we really don't know about. When you mixin meds into the equation, you're ceding your emotions to someone else, mixing in complicated medicine into your own personal growth narrative could sidetrack you for years from finding what your core problems are.