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I was in a kind of similar situation recently - I never went to class, ended up dropping out of school, would sleep 10-12 hours a day at odd hours, drank way too much, didn't really have much motivation for anything. For me the dominant factor was anxiety, and I didn't get help until I started having panic attacks. Like you I started seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist, and I was very lucky to not experience any adverse effects to the medications I was prescribed. SSRIs are an interesting thing - because they are such a gradual change, a lot of people write them off as not working. For a while, I wasn't even sure if it was doing anything, but at some point I realized that I didn't get the awful dread/despair feelings from normal everyday life anymore. I started reaching out to old friends again, and making new ones. I sleep 8 hours now. I didn't realize how bad things had gotten, and how much better they should have been. I used to be very against being dependent on drugs, but I eventually came to the realization that I'd rather live till 40 and love it than live till 80 and hate it - even though I don't think that's the tradeoff I'm making, it's the one I was willing to make. So I just did whatever I could. Don't write off drugs, meditation, exercise, diet changes, etc - try it all, and find what works for you. I mostly wrote about drugs here, but different people are averse to different things, or don't believe in them, when the reality is we still don't really understand mental health very well, and your best bet is just to throw everything you can at it and see what sticks. But you gotta do it. It's way better when you do. |