| Hey man, thanks for sharing! A lot of us have battled with depression at various points so you're in good company. Depression used to be an annual appearance for me, like allergy season, and even when I knew I would become depressed and could feel it happening, one little change in attitude let me take advantage of my depression and harnass its energy instead of feeling like a tidal wave crashed over me that I was helpless to hold back. When I'm not depressed, some things like getting out of bed or getting out of the house whiles its still light out come easily. When I'm depressed making it out of the house at all is an achievement in itself. The thing that flipped it around for me was one time while I was depressed I was also job hunting. Normally, I get anxious and nervous when applying, and rejection often stings. But when I'm depressed I'm just numb to that. I don't care, and tbe sting of rejection bounces off me. So now I split things between "This works better when I'm not depressed" and "Save this for when I feel depressed". When I feel myself slipping into it I'm not afraid or disappointed anymore, I think "oh, I unexpectedly have temporary thick-skin super powers" and think through all the things that need doing that non-depressed me was scared of that depressed-me can get through no problem. That shift was like a surfboard that let me ride that tidal wave and navigate until the season of dspression was over. Instead of giving voice to your fears, doubts, and failures - let depression be a shield allowing you to fearlessly embark on edifying activities that will make life for future-you better! This depression WONT last forever, capitalize on the time you have left and pretty soon you'll find yourself not-depressdd and it will go back to the old routine! Surfs up! See you on the beach :) |