[efriese]

You have to embrace the suck. I felt the same way for a long time, but as long as you are learning on every project you'll get better. I used to be very self-conscious about my code...I guess I still am a little. I stopped trying to do more projects and focused on one or two. Keep doing revisions until it starts to look good and you feel good about it.

A few years out of college, I was working at a startup building UAVs. It was pretty awesome. We had to move for me to take this job and my wife switched schools for the move. After 2 years she wasn't happy and wanted to move back to her original school to finish her degree. In order to make the move happen I had to take a programming job that was horrible. I was doing .NET web sites and babysitting a SharePoint server. Horrible, but I did it for my wife. I thought I would have to explain the blip on the radar in the future. While I was at this job, I met a guy who was a consultant for a silicon valley startup. He talked me into joining their company. That was 7 years ago. By taking the crap job, I found a dream job.

Just code, learn, and keep your eyes open.