[sebastianconcpt]

I've remembered a technique I've learned somewhere that might be of use to you these days. This is good for when you are under some kind of pressure to make a decision that is not exactly peaceful: when in doubt, don't act.

Don't let your emotional drive your decisions.

If you want to go serious in making a decision about this, I'd risk to say that this is the book your future self would like you to have read now: http://heathbrothers.com/books/decisive/