| I feel you. I have a wonderful family, well paid job I enjoy and am occasionally good at, he worry it's all going to be taken away. I think there are a few practical things to do - benchmark yourself against objective reality
- understand the problem of imposter syndrome
- improve your lifestyle
- take medicines Firstly, there are ways to discover your own knowledge and abilities against external benchmarks. For example many programmin languages have koans for practising or similar. This will give you a way to sample your self more objectively. Imposter syndrome - everyone has it, and everyone is afraid the rug will be pulled away. Absolutely everyone. Sleep, eat exercise right. Easy to say, hard to do but every improvement will help you Medicate - there are drugs from SSRIs onwards. Combined with plans like above there is little reason a years course would not help you buy time to sort the rest out. Take care. You are not alone |