[DanBC]

You asked for advice. Seeking medical attention for a medical condition is good advice. What you do with that advice is up to you. You're free to ignore that advice. But you shouldn't dismiss it for bogus reasons; just be honest and say that you don't want to see a doctor.

[an_tie_hero]

I'm sorry you think the undisclosed circumstances of my life are bogus and that I am a dishonest person. From a throwaway account to hide my identity, there's no possible defense I can mount against an accusation of dishonesty. But my circumstances aren't as simple as "do I want to see a doctor? [y/n]"

[igravious]

I know you're in a bad place at the moment so you may find it a little hard to get some perspective on some of the advice you're being given.

Let's say, for argument's sake, that one of the underlying factors with you is neurochemical or at any rate neurological. This isn't an unwarranted assumption because we know that the hopelessness that you feel is in your mind (I don't mean imagined, I mean that these are mental states) and we know the mind is the brain. Your circumstances (money-related, time-related) notwithstanding it seems like really really good advice to go see someone who does brain-stuff, either a doctor or a counsellor.

DanBC is _not_ saying that the undisclosed circumstances of your life are bogus - he is saying that using the (undisclosed) circumstances of your life as excuses or _reasons_ for not seeking professional help is bogus. And without sounding harsh, I'd have to agree. I'm sure there are at least some kind of charitable organisations out your way that'll see you free of charge (and if these conflict with your hours of work and you can't possibly take a day off) then there are 24-hour (toll-free) helplines, websites, what have you.

If you really feel that you are in a hopeless situation and you're contemplating an irreversible act then don't you owe it to yourself to thoroughly investigate every option?

There are many times that I didn't and many years later I now wish I had; could have spared me a lot of suffering and pain.