| In my opinion, you don't need reasons for wanting to live: Survival instinct is the default in the human being. Not wanting to live is the strange thing, but in Western society (or Asian)it is becoming more and more normal, because it is easy to not get the basics there. I have lived in countries like Angola, Uganda, Rwanda with people having 1 /20 of the things what an American has. But they are much happier overall, because they have more in what makes a life human. First they have friends and they have family. People in Western societies live alone, specially in America most people don't have friends at all. They can live in a McMansion completely isolated from the rest of the world. "family" for an American means:"your parents" or "your children". For an African person could mean between 20 to 40 people. This is an advantage for some things. In the west you could do whatever you want, without having to convince people in your family that does not understand, but also is a tremendous disadvantage as you are alone in tough times. Americans are puritans, they can't see a breast from a woman. The people that do, do it for commercial profit reaping the "scandal", like Madonna or MTV annual prices shows.They could call the cops if they see you making pictures to a kid smiling on the street(being puritan means they are obsess with sex and have a tremendous dirty mind). In Africa sex is normal. There is no such a concept of "possessing another person" like in the West. In my opinion this alone is pathological creating hypocrisy and jealously . You see people naked from both sexes taking a bath in the river, or women breastfeeding their children in public. It is normal there, like having sex with multiple people(which makes AIDS a great problem). In Africa you have fantastic weather. Great sun, no winter in most of the continent. In the West lots of people don't see the sun at all because they are working all day inside buildings. In places like Boston you can't simply not live out there in winter, it is too cold. The food in the US is so preprocessed. People are overweight because the food they eat is so artificial. Food that have stayed in the fridge or is industrially processed destroys lots of useful substances(enzymes, co enzymes, vitamins, fiber and lots of substances that let you incorporate other substances). In Africa people is young, lots of kids smiling everywhere. The West is becoming an older and older society with worries everywhere, fear for the future. So I recommend you look at the basics in your live: Do you have friends, love, exercise, quality food, sleep well, go outside frequently? Do you work too much or too hard? If not, you need to change your habits first. Traveling far away is a great way of being forced to change your habits fast. Once you have your basics, start using self help material, like books and videos and learn what works for you. There is amazing material out there, the problem is knowing what works and what does not. You can learn meditation, which is basically training for controlling your internal thoughts. But this is advanced, you first need to have the basics solved. |