| I've struggled with the same question and seemingly just to add to my despair I find I cannot answer the question satisfactorily. The only reason I do keep living is that I find I can't answer the opposite question either: Why not keep living? At least for that variant many reasons do surface, and whilst none seem overwhelmingly strong they do allow the question to evolve into: Why not keep living a little while longer? A deferred decision as I've found no strong answers either way. I suspect that living a long life is to just not have strong answers either way and to discover that time has passed and now you're old. I don't buy the argument that suicide isn't an option, of course it is. When despair is all you have, and the future is bleak, it sometimes can appear to be the only option. Somehow though, a short time later, decision not made, I've always found myself in some place in which I'm glad I didn't. In which I've found some peace, some bliss, some joy from life... and doing so has driven the despair away. I have no answer for "Why keep living?", but if you are willing to consider changing things in your life (to get away from the things that bring you despair) then you can find some answers of varying merit to the opposite question. |