[drcomputer]

Thanks for writing this. Over the last 4 years I switched from studying computer science with applications in mathematics, to studying math and symbolic logic with applications in computation. I did this alone, without interacting with anyone in the field. I thought I was going insane because of how many direct 'abstract' connections there are from computer science to mathematics and back again. I know these abstract connections exist as words in the world, but many times it feels like I have to go hunt for the word when I already have the idea.

I haven't really found any real world applications of the concepts I've learned, aside from having to hold a meticulously constructed symbolic reasoning world inside my head for a really long time without observational reality confirming it's correctness as a model to describe all things. This makes me pretty good at programming things that are incompletely described, I think, but also explains why Tarski said he was the only sane logician.

I never really hear about autodidacts talking about their experience. It can be really rough most of the time. I literally think it's just luck that I stumble across the right words. I also think it's luck when I manage to understand things and make a connection between them. I have managed to connect such disparate symbols together and maintain that connection strongly for long periods of time (with absolute conviction), that it all really seems like magic when it does work. But, giants, shoulders, yada yada.

[cosmoharrigan]

> meticulously constructed symbolic reasoning world (...) connect such disparate symbols together and maintain that connection strongly for long periods of time

Out of curiosity, could you give an example?

[drcomputer]

The construction and maintenance of my psychology using mathematics and symbolic logic to model, explain, extrapolate, analyze, and manipulate it.

I use computer science to explain psychology, in a way the makes the person being judged correct, instead of requiring their behavior to be altered based on personal opinion.

Imagine you have two conflicting sets of data from observation in your mind, and you have to process this data quickly. Taking an arbitrary and insufficient amount of data is selective and results in bias. Over time this results in contradiction even though both instances of inference are correct with regards to the logical model they rely on, and the data fed to the model. Now imagine that you received this data because over a short period of time, you have experience such a wide range of life experience that your observations allow you to collect both sets of data simultaneously and with correctness. Both data models model the world correctly, but when separated into distinct models of 'knowing things' instead of 'one confusing mass of data', you get contradiction.

So imagine someone endures trauma in their life, and has their mind molded in a specific way based on the current state of psychology, because over time the thoughts in the patients mind are shortly transformed to the thoughts in the therapists mind. Psychology did not experience the trauma, so how can psychology have an opinion on the consequences of bad things happening?

Making inferences adds to data and alters future data models and inferences. How people are judged while they are being 'helped' affects whether that help harms or helps them. I was in a group therapy for victims of domestic abuse and my "counselor" told me that she hated people like me.