| Hi, I was in a similar situation to you so I'd like to try and help a little bit. First of all, you should try to talk to a therapist. I think that your reaching out here is a great idea, but a therapist will likely be much more effective long term. As for your lack of motivation, that is literally a symptom of depression. I remember when I was in college I went to my professor and he told me that if I didn't have motivation then I probably should switch majors. Pretty awful advice. What's worked for me in the past when I had no motivation was to start easy. So, say tomorrow you apply to one job. If you tell other people that you are going to do this, it's even better because you will be less likely to back down. After you apply to one, the next day you apply to two, and so on. The reason this works is that usually you'll feel good after applying and then the next time you'll use that as motivation to do it again. Also because if all you have to do is just apply to one company, well that's pretty easy so hopefully you can at least motivate yourself to do that. Finally, if you truly love something then you don't need to compare yourself to anyone else, because it doesn't matter. You shouldn't like something just because you are good at it, you like it because you find it interesting. Also, the reality is that if you want to be good at anything you're going to have to go through the part when you suck at it. It's one of the main things that separate people who excel from those who don't make anything of themselves. |