[cearl]

Freedom for me/security for the people close to me, I guess. I was one of the lucky few who made a lot off Bitcoin, and paid off my dad's mortgage with the profits. I think I work harder now than if his house had ended up being foreclosed, as now I realize what an outlier that opportunity was.

It's becoming increasingly hard to find inspiration for the things that conflict with my personal ambitions(school, getting an internship at a megacorp etc), I regret to admit. As I'm typing this I'm sitting in my last networking lecture of the semester, and it's difficult to find inspiration to pay attention to this to say the least ha. If I'm working on a freelance project I actually care about, I will work at 100% for days at a time without any need for external contributing factors. I'd be content at a startup living out of my car working 16 hours a day coding/moving boxes/anything for peanuts(I mean as long as everyone else was doing the same of course), but I want my parents and other immediate family to be financially secure.

I guess it's hard to find inspiration until I'm willing to sacrifice to attain whatever goal I have in mind. I first went the business route, wanted to become a quant and wore suits with the rest of 'em. I then realized that if I really wanted something, I wouldn't have to watch corny youtube videos to motivate me to go do it.