[philh]

FWIW, this sounds like you agree with eunoia that there's more to life than supporting yourself and being validated in your creativity.

And it sounds like you're not getting everything you want from life, and if that's the case, you have my sympathies.

[xtrumanx]

Damn man, not sure how I should respond. Thank you? Don't worry though loneliness isn't so bad once you get used to it.

I'm actually on vacation now and spent most of it in my room. Rented my first VPS, figured my way around Docker, set up nginx as a reverse proxy, kept tabs on my auth logs and noticed a lot of ssh login attempts from Chinese IPs. These are all firsts for me and I'm having fun. I don't think I'd trade those experiences for just to hang out with people who couldn't give two hoots about any of the things I'm interested in.

Ideally I'd love to share those experiences with others but if the choice is pretending to care about whatever topic I don't care about just for the sake of socializing and being alone and doing things that interest me, I'll take the latter every time.