[larp]

I think you nailed it.

Perhaps out of hope but more likely Stockholm syndrome, over the last decade I seem to have got stuck in a cycle of: Blind love and hope for a new product of theirs, utter disappointment at the resulting clusterfuck after a week, hatred, switch to something else, miss it, go crawling back.

Only just broken out of this loop but to be honest it knackered my productivity badly over the years.

Ultimately I'm a sucker I suspect but the revelation that FreeBSD hadn't actually poked me in the eye once in the last decade had turned my hand finally. That and ruby.

Yes I got tangled in DNA, ATL etc as well. Nothing but regret.