[JCJoverTCP]

having been recently beset with some really bad life things, i seek solace in my son who is my best friend, inspiration, and reason for living. a few minutes with him, and i am ok for a while. but mostly after being screwed so many times in the past few years by jobs, infosec industry, ... its hard to wake up happy just waiting for the other shoe to drop. constantly looking over my shoulder waiting for something bad to happen is not a fun way to live, but at least i realize the trigger.

this is my own depression and i am going to just put it out there that you have your own depression too. take it one day at a time, get comfort from the little things.