[felixrabe]

My 2 cents Jonathan - I've done this, and it might help, but I don't know you (yet) so maybe not:

There's people who make you feel better, and others who make you feel worse. Spend more time with the former, and less time with the latter. One by one, more people like Michael will help you realize you that you belong.

Yes for screaming! There was a super-dark time in my life where I literally did not know where to go. I was in my car, on some off road, being totally crazy and screaming and crying out loud. Did I have a choice? Actually no, it was unbearable. I don't know what would have happened if I didn't have a safe place to go wild in this way. After this, I was glad to know someone to call then.