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See here for the details of the trip: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8247965

The critical thing is to understand that the opposite of fear, hate, and indifference is love. If you truly love something, you'll gladly do whatever it takes to become good at it. So I needed to rewire my brain to be madly in love with mathematics; once that was accomplished, the rest was easy.