[mrtron]

You are the first hit in my suicide filter, and I didn't even need access to your mail client. Please pay up.

If you were being remotely serious about suicide, here is what I decided at a young age when I first thought about the subject when trying to decide whether a religion was true or not: If this whole existence is worthless and meaningless, make the best of it while you are here. If this whole existence is part of something bigger, make the best of it while you are here. There really is really no problem or ailment that makes suicide a viable option.