[yupmetoo]

Thats exactly how I feel myself. I've learned all the social games and have a lot of friends, high levels of success both professionally and socially, but its extremely rare that I feel a real connection to the people I'm around. I always feel like I'm faking, and its somewhat exhausting to keep my face up. I was also diagnosed with ASD in the 90s, and had probably a 10 year old's social ability by the time I finished high school. I've made up for a lot of time very quickly, and I no longer feel behind but there is definitely something missing.