School seems like hell!!I just literally don't want to go there in the morning and just want to get back as soon as possible.The problem here is i don't find any excitement there.People just don't care about coding and tech and teachers have hard problems solving problems and it's a vicious cycle as jobs will only come by marks and marks will only come by "rote" learning.
Get into hacker mentality. Do what you need to do to get what you want! If you want job and job will come by marks, then focus on marks. If you want marks and marks will only come by rote learning, then focus on rote learning.
If you believe there is another way to go about it, you should try doing that. If getting depressed will get you there, then go at it otherwise you are wasting your time and energy by getting depressed.
Focus on things that you can control, focus on influencing things that you can influence. But if things you can't control or influence then either hack it or don't worry about it.