[wdewind]

Yeah, I don't mean to imply there is anything wrong with medication, but what you've found is that you've exhausted the limits of what your GP can do for you. So it's time to move on to a specialist. I would suggest starting with talk therapy simply because it's the less extreme response than psychiatry + drugs and it's always easier to escalate, but I really don't know you and I don't know what you're going through.

Going to a therapist is absolutely a major time and money commitment and those are the things that stopped me from doing it for way too long. My basic experience finding a therapist was that there were two kind: one that was in my network, and one that could see me at a reasonable time. I ended up just paying out of pocket and getting somewhat reimbursed later by the insurance company. It wasn't great, but it was totally worth it and I really wish I'd done it sooner.

I don't mean to sound pretentious, but this line:

> I'm still no where near what I feel is normal.

Tells me that you hardly scratched the surface of what therapy can offer you, at the very least in terms of perspective.

It sounds like you're in a rut, and you aren't making progress. Regardless of if you enter therapy, it's time to try something else. If you happen to be in NYC feel free to email me and I can set you up with a great therapist who really helped me. Either way, best of luck to you and keep up the good fight.