[onion2k]

and i'm totally addicted to coding - even when i notice my lack of math skills. i spent the nights trying to understand cs concepts and couldn't sleep or stop before i found a solution (sometimes i did not sleep the whole day).

That sort of thing sounds terrible to people who're recruiting. The fact is being good at making software is about 20% actual coding ability, and 80% being diligent and organised, communicating with other people, and willingness to trudge through boring tasks like writing documentation and attending meetings. Faced with two candidates, one of whom is all "I love coding and I don't sleep if I'm working on something!" and the other who is "I like coding, but I put it to one side in the evenings to socialise, watch movies, read books" it'll be the second candidate who gets the job every single time.

If you want to get your first (or second, whatever) job writing software concentrate more on the 'getting a job' part than the 'writing software' part. Demonstrate skills that will show you're a person who is nice to be around. At the beginning of your career that is far more important than being able to solve hard problems, because the 'solving hard problems' bit is going to be someone else's job.

[chris_wot]

I wouldn't employee either. The first one sounds like they have some issues. The second one doesn't sound like they have much passion.

I'd say something like "I'm passionate about coding". :-)

[newaccountfool]

What company are you hiring coders for, Wendys?