[kneisley]

It is certainly reasonable! The two hour commute and the craptastic deployment process are all you need to explain why you bailed after just a little while.

If there are financial reasons against quitting, or you don't have enough cushion to quit right now, then reset expectations. Focus on sleep. Eat healthy and hearty, exercise, and if you aren't well-rested, call in sick. Put your physical and mental health first, always.

It sounds like isolation, drudgery, and disappointment are ruling your life. A reset could help that. That said, the depression and the impostor syndrome are things you should be talking to a therapist about.