[GFischer]

I'm in no position to help you (sorry) but it sounds you could keep the company in life support by focusing on consulting - you'd be better off looking for referrals from your network.

If you have a "healthy services revenue", I guess a bank loan isn't out of the question, but you have to get a plan in place on how you're going to pay it.

Try not to stress too much, I know it's not easy. Maybe looking for alternatives and having a fallback plan will make you sleep easier (get a commitment/offer to hire you from someone?). Paying back 20k doesn't sound like the end of the world, neither does going back to a job. Can the project be put on hold while you build up some money? (I guess you'll have to fire your employees and that must suck) Can you maintain the project while you work a job to sustain it?

I wish you good luck, and take care of yourself first. The money issues can be fixed, health problems aren't that easy.

[threethirty]

Thanks for the kind words, GFischer! I'll try to keep my life balanced. It's just become a bit difficult lately. Hope you all the best!